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Ambulance: Coping with what you've experienced during the pandemic

This information is for anyone working in the ambulance service, whether you manage a team, help people by responding to calls, work from home or in an office, or are a paramedic.

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We know the pandemic isn’t over. But parts of society are starting to return to the way they were before.

As a responder in the ambulance service, you might notice that some things at work, or in your home life, aren’t going back to the way they were before.

There might be new rules during your shift, or more jobs to respond to than before the pandemic. You might feel differently about your role to how you did previously. And for some things, you might not want them to go back to the way they were before.

This information might help you to make sense of what you’ve seen and experienced during coronavirus (covid-19). It’s not a replacement for mental health treatment and support. But it may give you some tools to help you understand how you’re feeling, and some tips on how to cope with these feelings.

Recognising how you're feeling now

We experience many different feelings every day. Feelings can help guide us in how to respond to the situations we find ourselves in. But often, we can’t give a name to every feeling we’re having, when we have it.

During the pandemic, you might have dealt with lots of things you found difficult, and not had the time to think about them properly. You might be having feelings now, as a result of something that happened a while ago.

Identifying some of the feelings you’re having now might help you to understand what could have caused them. And once you know the causes, you might feel better prepared for how to deal with these feelings.

How do I start to recognise how I'm feeling?

Recognising how you’re feeling might help you to understand why you reacted the way you did to certain situations in the past. For example, you might have had a sleepless night, and not associated it with the stressful calls you’d taken that day. Maybe you had an argument with someone you care about, without really knowing why.

Putting your feelings into words could help you to understand the emotions you’re having. There are different ways you can do this, and everyone’s preferences will be different. Here are some suggestions:

  • Write it down. Some people find that writing about the things they’re feeling, or keeping a diary, can be helpful. If you don’t want to write about it, you could try other creative ways to express how you’re feeling, like drawing or painting.
  • Say it out loud. Some people find that talking about what they’re going through, or what’s happened in their day, can help them to recognise how they feel about what’s happened. You don’t have to do this with another person. You could try it at home on your own.
  • Practise mindfulness. Mindfulness is a technique which involves making a special effort to notice what's happening in the present moment (in your mind, body and surroundings), without judging anything. Mindfulness can help you to notice the negative and positive feelings you’re having.

“You try and compartmentalise everything you do – you go to nasty jobs and you try and leave it behind. But you've got your own stresses on top of that, your own mental health – it makes the job extremely hard.” – David, paramedic

Below are some of the things members of the ambulance service have told us they’ve been feeling throughout the pandemic. You might be experiencing some of these, and may also be having feelings which aren’t listed here.

Stress

When we say things like "this is stressful" or "I'm stressed", we might mean:

  • Situations or events that put pressure on us. These are times where we have lots to do and think about, or don't have much control over what happens. For example, going to lots of patients who are very unwell and need urgent care.
  • Our reaction to being placed under pressure. These are the feelings we get when we have demands placed on us that we find difficult to cope with. For example, feeling worried about how you’ll manage to reach patients on time when you’re so busy.

If you’re experiencing stress, you might feel:

  • irritable, aggressive, impatient or wound up
  • over-burdened
  • anxious, nervous or afraid
  • like your thoughts are racing and you can't switch off
  • unable to enjoy yourself
  • depressed
  • uninterested in life
  • like you've lost your sense of humour
  • a sense of dread
  • worried about your health
  • neglected or lonely.

“When taking 999 calls it can often be similar to this: ‘COVID’, ‘Mental health’, ‘COVID’, ‘Mental health’, ‘COVID’.” – Ben, emergency dispatcher

Anxiety

Anxiety is what we feel when we are worried, tense or afraid, particularly about things that are about to happen, or which we think could happen in the future.

Anxiety can affect:

  • our bodies. You might feel sick, restless, or like your heart is racing.
  • our minds. You might feel tense or nervous, or like the worst is about to happen.
  • our daily lives. It might feel harder to enjoy your free time, and it can affect things like your relationships and work.

Moral injury

Moral injury describes a set of feelings you might have if you’ve had to do things, or see things, which go against your values and beliefs.

During the pandemic, you might have been forced to make some difficult decisions around supporting patients. For example, you might have had to care for one patient, while knowing there were other patients who also needed your help. This might make you feel conflicted, or like you could have done more.

If you’re experiencing moral injury, you might feel:

  • guilty or ashamed
  • angry
  • disgusted
  • conflicted.

“I’d often find myself just sat there, not really doing anything but thinking about the job, and thinking about whether there was anything else I could have done.” – Dan, ambulance service

Compassion fatigue

When you’re repeatedly looking after people in distressing or difficult circumstances, this can leave you feeling physically and mentally exhausted. You can end up feeling like you don’t care about people as much as you used to. This is sometimes known as compassion fatigue.

Compassion fatigue might make you feel:

  • angry or irritable
  • like you’re enjoying your job less
  • less confident about making decisions at work
  • less motivated to do your job.

Trauma

Going through very stressful, frightening or distressing events is sometimes called trauma. Everyone has a different reaction to trauma. You might notice the effects quickly. Or you might not notice them until a long time afterwards.

A traumatic event might make you feel:

  • frightened
  • under threat
  • humiliated
  • rejected
  • abandoned
  • invalidated
  • unsafe
  • unsupported
  • trapped
  • ashamed
  • powerless.

“It is very difficult to predict what will come on the line when you hear the beep, and during a block of three days I was unfortunate to have a slew of traumatic calls.” – Daniel, emergency medical dispatcher

Fatigue and burnout

Fatigue and burnout are more than feelings of being tired. Burnout can happen if you’re constantly under lots of pressure from work. It can make you feel:

  • exhausted, like you’re drained of energy
  • like you enjoy your job less, or don’t feel motivated to do it anymore
  • like you’re not doing your job as well as you used to.
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Burnout as a paramedic

“You bury your feelings deep, and sometimes you have to do that to deal with the job. You just carry on regardless, and it reaches a critical point where your brain and your body say "no more". Something has to give, and it's always the person, it's never the job.”

Guilt

Lots of people in the ambulance service have been under extra pressure during the pandemic. If you’re struggling and feel like you need a break, it’s important to speak up.

But you might be feeling guilty about asking for extra support, especially when you know so many of your colleagues are struggling too. You might also feel worried about letting down the public. Try to remember that your wellbeing is just as important as the people you support. We have more information about where to get support.

Anger

You might have found yourself feeling angrier during the pandemic. For example, you might have felt angry with people who’ve broken lockdown rules, when you’ve been working so hard. You might have felt angry with loved ones or the general public, if they’ve denied that coronavirus exists.

This may have felt even harder when you’ve had to treat patients who haven’t followed the rules. It might have left you feeling demotivated, or like you’re enjoying your work less.

Dissociation

Some people find it hard identify how they’re feeling, especially if they’ve been through something traumatic. This is sometimes known as dissociation.

If you dissociate, you may feel disconnected from yourself and the world around you. For example, you may feel detached from your body or feel as though the world around you is unreal. Dissociation is one way the mind copes with too much stress, such as during a traumatic event.

We have more information on dissociation, including tips on how to take care of yourself when you dissociate.

Understanding why you might be feeling this way

Once you understand what it is you’re feeling, you can start to think about what could have caused some of these feelings. This might make you feel better prepared for how to deal with them.

Some of the things in this list might be contributing to how you’re feeling now. You might also have had experiences which aren’t included here.

Changes to your lifestyle and work

  • There may have been new rules to follow at work, like wearing more personal protective equipment (PPE) or not being able to go into certain areas at hospitals.
  • The environment at work might have changed. For example, you might not be allowed to gather in groups in break rooms. This might affect the closeness or friendships you feel with your colleagues.
  • The type of calls you answer, or jobs you attend, might have changed. You may have been supporting more patients with coronavirus, or more patients experiencing a mental health crisis.
  • Lockdown may have changed your home life. For example, not being able to go on holiday, enjoy hobbies, or do the things you usually do to relax.

Bereavement

  • You may have supported more patients who were dying.
  • People you care about may have died from coronavirus, or from other illnesses. You may not have been able to be there for them in the way you would have wanted.
  • You may have missed out on funerals, or not been able to hold a funeral in the way you imagined.
  • You might have lost colleagues. If you weren’t able to pay tributes to them in the way you usually would, this may have felt even harder.

See our information on bereavement.

Dealing with more traumatic incidents

  • You may have cared for a higher number of sicker patients. This may have left you feeling like there’s no break, or time to recover.
  • If you’re a call handler or emergency medical dispatcher, you may have taken a higher number of distressing calls.
  • You might have had to make difficult changes to the way you work, and this can feel upsetting. For example, not being able to take loved ones with you in the ambulance while taking a patient to the hospital.
  • Hearing stories from colleagues can also feel traumatic, even if you weren’t there yourself.
  • You may have attended a higher number of suicides. Read our information on what to do if you’ve been bereaved by suicide.

If you feel unable to keep yourself safe, it's a mental health emergency.

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“At work, we are making life changing decisions in more difficult situations than ever before. These decisions are ones we are taking home with us.” – Ben, emergency dispatcher

Relationship changes

  • Being more stressed at work, or dealing with more difficult jobs, might have had an impact on relationships at home. You might have found yourself needing more support, or wanting to be left alone more. Seeing you under so much pressure might have affected the people you live with, or the people close to you.
  • Lockdown and restrictions to travel might have meant you couldn’t see the people you care about.
  • You may have found yourself missing colleagues, if you were working from home more, weren’t able to see them outside of work, or weren’t taking breaks together anymore.
  • You might have worried about passing on coronavirus to the people you care about. This may have added strain to your relationships.
  • Not everyone has had the same experiences and reactions to coronavirus, and you may have lost friends, or found relationships have changed, because of your different experiences. You may have grown closer to some colleagues, if you’ve been through similar experiences.

Missing out on things

  • You might have missed out on big life events, like going to weddings, birthdays or funerals. This might have felt frustrating, or like time was passing without you being able to enjoy it.
  • You might have missed out on doing the day to day things you usually enjoy. For example, seeing friends, going out, or having holidays. Not having these things might have made it harder to unwind from difficult shifts.
  • You might feel like you’re missing out on the rewarding or enjoyable parts of your job, or like you aren’t getting the ambulance service experience you were expecting. You might feel like you’ve lost the love you once had for the job.

Hopes and fears

For many of us, the pandemic meant that things we hoped would happen, or looked forward to, suddenly felt less likely. And things we feared would happen might have felt closer to coming true. For example:

  • You may have been worried about staffing levels before the pandemic. You might be even more worried about losing staff now.
  • You may have been looking forward to things, like weddings or holidays abroad. These may have been cancelled or postponed, and you might feel like they’ll never happen.
  • If you experience health anxiety, the pandemic might have felt especially hard to deal with. You can find out more about health anxiety on the Anxiety UK website.

Tools and strategies to cope

When it’s your job to help others, it can feel hard to take time to look after yourself. But it’s important to look after your own wellbeing. Here are some strategies for coping with some of the things you might be feeling.

Getting back motivation

You don’t have to feel motivated all of the time, and many of us have days where we feel less motivated at work and at home. But if you feel like coronavirus has taken away some of the love and enjoyment you once had for your job, you might find these tips helpful.

  • Set yourself achievable goals. Try to focus on a completing a small, achievable goal each day. You might find it helpful to break down each goal into smaller goals. If work already feels quite target-focused, try thinking of something which isn’t related to work.
  • Reward yourself. Once you’ve completed the goal, reward yourself. It doesn’t have to be something big. You could try taking 15 minutes out of your day to do something you enjoy. For example, finding time to read a few pages of a book, or taking the dog for a walk.
  • Try to do some physical activity. Some people find staying active helps them to focus and stay motivated. Exercise can help you feel more energised and responsive, especially if you do a physical role. It can feel hard to get out and do exercise when you’re feeling unmotivated, but you could try starting small, and gradually increasing the amount you do. We have more tips on how to start getting active.
  • Try something new. Introducing new interests and activities in your life can help stimulate the brain, and may help you to feel more focused. You could try making some new recipes for dinner, changing your exercise routine, or finding a new hobby.


We have more tips for taking care of yourself when going into work during coronavirus.

Coping with change

  • Take stock of how you are feeling. If you feel able to, set aside some time to think about how you’re feeling about your current situation. You could start by using some of the tips on this page. You might also find it helpful to discuss how you’re feeling with someone your trust, like a friend or colleague. You might find that your colleagues have had similar experiences to you.
  • Focus on the things you can control. It’s easy to become overwhelmed by uncertainty, and not knowing what’s going to happen in the future. Instead, try to focus on the day-to-day, and the things that are in your control. You could make a plan for the next week, or few days.
  • Have a daily routine. Routine and structure can help to reduce feelings of uncertainty. Think about all the day-to-day things that are within your control. Is there anything you could do every day, or every week, to make life feel more consistent? If you work in irregular shift patterns, are there things you could do during your shift days, and during your non-working days, to help separate the two? Try not to feel like your routine must be rigid. Incorporating new things can help you feel motivated and give you things to look forward to.

The NHS has more information about how to deal with change and uncertainty during coronavirus.

“The most important thing is to look after yourself as well as others, and to have someone you can talk to about how you are feeling if you need it.” – Amanda, peer supporter in the ambulance service

Dealing with stress

  • Tell your manager if you’re feeling overburdened. It might be hard talking to your manager about your workload. You might feel like you shouldn’t complain if everyone else is also struggling, or like you’re just expected to cope. But ignoring the signs of burnout and stress can leave you feeling emotionally and mentally exhausted. Speak to your manager to see whether your workload could be adjusted.
  • If your manager is contributing to your feelings of stress, think about who else you could speak to at work. You could try another manager you trust, a colleague, or a staff network.
  • Speak to someone you don’t work with. You might prefer to talk about how you’re feeling with someone who’s not at work, like a friend or family member. It might feel hard speaking to loved ones about the things you deal with at work, and you might feel like you want to protect them from certain things. But remember, you can be in charge of how much you tell them. Read our tips on starting a conversation about mental health with friends and family.
  • Take time for yourself. Try to build some time into your day, just for you. Even if this is a five minute walk, or 15 minutes to read a book. Try to make this a priority, but don’t be too harsh on yourself if you can’t always find the time.
  • Try practising mindfulness. Mindfulness can help you to focus on the present. It can also help to clear your head, and make you feel calmer, which might help when dealing with stressful situations.
  • Spend some time in nature. Spending time in nature can be good for your mental wellbeing, and has been found to help with specific mental health problems like anxiety and depression. It can also help to reduce feelings of stress. You could find some ways to incorporate nature into your working day. For example driving a more scenic route to work, or having a plant or something which reminds you of nature on your desk. Read our ideas for how to spend time enjoying nature.

We have more information on staying mentally healthy at work, including tips on how to cope with stress.

“Sometimes, when my head has too much going on, music doesn’t work for me. I have to lay on my bed and ask Alexa to play some mediation music. Just focusing on your breathing with your eyes closed can really help.” – Ben, emergency dispatcher

Feeling more positive

It’s very uncommon to feel positive all of the time, and most of us will have periods where we feel better or worse. But working during the pandemic may have left you feeling worse about yourself, your job, or society in general. The following things might help you to regain some positivity.

  • Be kind to yourself. Try to notice when you’re thinking negative things about yourself. If you had a difficult shift, are you telling yourself that you should have done better, or that it was your fault when things went wrong? Try to challenge these negative thoughts. Think about the things you did well instead.
  • List the positive things. During the pandemic, it may have felt like all you heard was bad news. Try to think of some positive things which are happening in your life, or things you feel grateful for. This could be a good news story you heard, a positive conversation you had with a colleague, or a time you laughed recently. You could try writing down your positive things, and rereading them when you’re feeling low.
  • Take a break from the news and social media. During the pandemic, coronavirus was in the news a lot. When you’re also dealing with it at work, this constant bad news cycle can become overwhelming. Try taking a break from the news and social media. You don’t have to cut them out completely, but you could limit how much time you spend reading them each day.

 

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Peer support in the ambulance service

“If I'm feeling overwhelmed then I take a step back. It helps me refocus and recharge my batteries. I try not to be too hard on myself if I have a bad day, or if I feel I haven't coped as well as I should have.”

 

Thinking about the future

We don’t know what might happen in the future. At work, some things might be returning to how they were before. If you were working from home, you might be returning to your regular workplace, and seeing colleagues again. If you work with patients, you might be seeing fewer patients with coronavirus.

And there may be some things which still feel different. You might still have strict hygiene measures in place. Your caseload might not be back to pre-pandemic levels.

You might find it helpful to have some strategies in place for how you’ll cope with the future, and any feelings of uncertainty or worry you might have. The following things might be helpful:

  • Give yourself time to adjust. Everyone has their own response to the changes coronavirus has caused. It’s important to take things at your own pace. Try not to put pressure on yourself to fill up your diary, or to do lots of things now restrictions have lifted.
  • Control the things you can. Try to focus on the things you can change, rather than the things that are outside your control. For example, you could try to have at least one conversation a day with a colleague that’s not about coronavirus.
  • Share you worries with someone at work. If you’re worried about going back into your usual workplace, or you’re worried about some of the rules at work changing again, try speaking to your manager or someone else you trust at work. Together, you might be able to think of some ways to make working a bit easier.
  • Remind yourself that it’s OK to feel anxious about the future. We don’t know what the future holds, so it’s OK if you feel uncertain about it. It’s a natural response. You might find it helpful to read our tips for taking care of yourself when you’re anxious.

“Talking to my peers has also been a massive help. It helps me realise that what I’m going through is normal, and that many people experience things like this from time to time.” – Dan, ambulance service

Anniversaries

You may have experienced lots of big changes to your life during the pandemic. You may have lost loved ones, or missed out on important events. And when the anniversaries of these moments come around, you might find it brings up some difficult feelings.

It can be helpful to take a moment to think about the events that have had a big impact on your life. If you want to, you could plan something on the date of the event’s anniversary. You could meet up with other people who were affected. Or, you might prefer to spend some time reflecting on your own. You might find these pages helpful:

Where to get support

There are many resources, services and organisations which offer mental health support for people in the ambulance service.

Support from your workplace

Ask your supervisor, line manager or colleagues if you can access specialist support. Some of the following things may be helpful:

  • Trauma Risk Management (TRiM). In some areas, TRiM is facing backlogs because of the pandemic and it may be harder to access than usual. You may be able to access some of the other things in this list instead.
  • Critical Incident Stress Debriefing (CISD)
  • an Employee Assistance Programme (EAP) helpline
  • counselling services
  • peer support groups, including support groups on social media
  • support from occupational health
  • many NHS trusts have chaplains who you can speak to, whether you’re religious or not
  • NHS staff mental health and wellbeing hubs.

If you are a student paramedic you might be able to access extra support through your course provider. Our student mental health hub has more tips and resources for anyone who is studying.

Stigma in the ambulance service

We know it can be difficult to reach out for help at work, especially when so much of your job is spent helping others. It can feel like there’s a stigma in the ambulance service, where you feel you have to put on a brave face and not admit that you’re struggling.

It’s always OK to ask for help. Reaching out could help you to get the support you need to feel better. And if you don’t feel comfortable speaking to someone at work, there are other organisations which might be able to help.

If you’re a line manager, think about how you could encourage your team members to come to you if they need to talk. You might find it helpful to read our resources on taking care of your staff. This includes information on how to support your team members, and how to create a mentally healthy workplace.

Challenging stigma in the ambulance service

“In the ambulance service, we like to have this feeling that we’re bulletproof, and sometimes you can feel a bit ashamed to admit that there’s something wrong with you. But we’re humans, not robots.”

Support from organisations

  • Blue Light Together is a website listing a range of help services, websites and publications about emergency responder mental health, as well as real life stories from people working in the ambulance service.
  • The Ambulance Staff Charity offers support for the ambulance community, including bereavement support, physical rehabilitation, financial support and specialist help for trauma or PTSD.
  • This Coronavirus Information pack is a free downloadable resource with tools to help support your health and wellbeing while working with patients with coronavirus.
  • Head First is a free, online mental wellness resource for people in the ambulance service, created by the NHS.
  • Our resource on how to be mentally healthy at work includes information on staying mentally healthy at work, with suggestions for what you can do if you’re experiencing poor mental health.
  • We have information on different helplines and listening services if you’re in a crisis and need to talk to someone.

Samaritans offer a 24/7 support line. Call 116 123 if you want to talk to someone about how you're feeling at any time.

Professional mental health support

When you're struggling to cope and self-care isn't enough, support from a professional can make a difference. This could include:

Mind's services

  • Mind's helplines provide information and support by phone and email.
  • Local Minds offer face-to-face services across England and Wales. These services include talking therapies, peer support and advocacy.
  • Side by Side is our supportive online community for anyone experiencing a mental health problem.

“Talking to my colleague probably saved my life. Having the chance to open up to someone was the beginning of a process that ended with me being correctly diagnosed and treated for the mental health problem I was living with.” – Neil, ambulance service

This information was published in October 2021. We will revise it in 2022.

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