Talking therapies like CBT and counselling can be really effective for depression and anxiety. Last year nearly a million people got talking therapy through the the Improving Access to Psychological Therapy (IAPT) programme. But as Sophie's experience shows, more needs to be done before everyone who needs it gets the right therapy at the right time.
My anxiety and depression began when I was in school. I was always a worrier and would often overthink a lot of unnecessary things, but it was only once I started university three years ago that I felt I needed help.
University was a massive change and a big jump from school. It left me feeling very vulnerable and unhappy. Despite getting good grades, I often put myself under a lot of pressure to succeed and my mental health got worse.
It was when I was on holiday with my two best friends that I decided to open up about how I felt. After a long chat, I resolved to bite the bullet and see my doctor. I wrote down a long list of everything I had been worrying about over the years and simply handed it over to her. At first, I was just told to read self-help leaflets and I thought I could help myself by talking to friends and family, and to just ‘think positively’. But, if you have a mental health problem, you’ll know it doesn’t work like that.
"You wake up fighting a daily battle. Your brain telling you you’re not good enough. You feel exhausted all the time."
After a year, I went back to my GP and this time she recommended that I self-refer for cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT). After a couple of weeks, I finally filled out the online form to get on the waiting list and the next day received a call about booking a phone assessment.
During my assessment I was asked to explain how I felt and what I was struggling with. I was prompted with questions such as, “Do you feel like hurting yourself?”, “Do you feel that you are of risk?”. I was told I had social anxiety and depression, as well as dermatillomania, when you compulsively pick at your skin. This diagnosis felt more validated, as it was specific to how I felt. I was then offered up to 12 weekly CBT sessions.
During the next five months while I waited for therapy, I experienced a lot of personal problems which left me feeling desperate. I called and emailed Samaritans and they helped me feel less alone and gave me a ‘coping plan’ for while I was waiting for therapy. I ended up going back to my GP a handful of times, begging her to contact the CBT service. After being deemed a priority and endless letters from my doctor, I finally got the call to say that my wait was over.
After seven months I finally had my first date for CBT! I was very apprehensive and didn’t know what to expect, but I tried my best to go in with an open mind. In my first session, my therapist and I got to know each other and spoke about my ‘mental health journey’.
The first few months didn’t seem to make any difference, but, I stuck it out and pushed myself to keep going and use the resources. Every week, I was given worksheets to do and we set goals and exercises to complete by the next session.
After seven sessions, I finally felt like I had improved enough to stop. My therapist and I made a relapse plan, summarising everything we had spoken about in my sessions and including useful coping strategies. It has really helped having one document that I can quickly refer to whenever I need to.
"Now, three months later, I feel like a new person."
I have become so much stronger and I have noticed myself referring back to things I was taught in CBT, without even realising. I have taught myself to say ‘yes’ to more opportunities and I am now able to recognise when I need to take a step back and look after my wellbeing, both physical and mental.
If you’re currently on the waiting list for talking therapy and you’re feeling apprehensive or anxious about it, that is completely normal. Go in with an open mind and do whatever you need to do to get the best out of your therapy.
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