I remember on one occasion, we were dealing with a serious fatality. A woman had fallen a long way and suffered horrendous head injuries. There was another person there, who was obviously traumatised from witnessing the event. The whole incident kind of imprinted itself on my brain.
A good few years later, I found myslef back at the spot that that person had fallen from. For some reason, images of that woman started to appear in my head, but somehow my daughter's face was transferred onto the image of this woman. It absolutely frightened the life out of me.
Eventually my anxiety got so bad that I went to my GP. He ran me though a little test that assessed my mental health, and I failed miserably! He identified that I had some issues, and was able to refer me quickly to the local mental health services.
The first time I saw a counselloe, I broke down in tears. Being able to talk to someone who was non-judgemental helped a lot, and she really seemed to understand what I was going through. More that anything else, she has equipped me with the ability to realise if I am dipping back down again. Now I know what to do to help myself cope.