You bury your feelings deep, and sometimes you have to do that to deal with the job. You just carry on regardless, and it reaches a critical point where your brain and your body say ‘no more’. Something has to give, and it’s always the person, it’s never the job.
You try and compartmentalise everything you do – you go to nasty jobs and you try and leave it behind. But you’ve got your own stresses on top of that, your own mental health – it makes the job extremely hard, and sometimes too hard to do.
The occupational health service we had access to was a helpline. You can get appointments weeks down the line to go and see somebody, but sometimes weeks are too long, days are too long. Sometimes you have do just do something about it and you’re trying to protect your job, to bring money in, to protect your own mental health and ability to function, and the stresses are just too major.