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Taryn Ozorio
Posted on 24/01/2011

Zoe's story

I’ve been a police officer for the past ten years. I developed post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) after a child abuse case I was involved with. I thought I was fine; it was horrible, of course, and I had a bit of a cry on the way home from the station, but it was done.

A trauma incident officer referred me to occupational health and they sent me to a police rehabilitation centre for two weeks, but I didn’t think I particularly needed help. Despite not sleeping well, I just enjoyed the fortnight. I went back to work, got promoted to sergeant and moved to a very busy station.

Three weeks later, I was one of the first on the scene where two of my colleagues had been in a car crash. They were both inside the car and extremely injured. It was really traumatic. I didn’t have any friends as I was new to the area, and I was a supervisor. I had to be there for everybody else, but nobody was there for me.

From then onwards I felt myself start to deteriorate. I am quite self-aware; I know when things are happening. So I knew I was unwell, but I couldn’t admit I wasn’t okay.

I kept thinking I’d get over it, that it would be fine. But I was walking around as if I was in a bubble – it was like I wasn’t really there.

I’d drive somewhere and just sit in the car for an hour and not realise. In my head it had felt like minutes, because I had been so detached from what was actually happening. I was also experiencing uncontrollable anger, which was not me and quite frightening.

I was going to work almost crying because I was that depressed about it. But I loved my job, and that was the frustrating thing.

I couldn’t tell anyone because of the stigma at work. For many people at work, if you’ve got depression, anxiety or stress then you’re 'weak', you’re a ‘sicknote’.

I went to the doctors hoping they’d just give me some tablets. They referred me to NHS Mental Health, who diagnosed me with PTSD.

I got signed off work for about seven months. Occupational health at work were really good and referred me for eye movement desensitisation and reprocessing therapy (EMDR), using buzzers and lights. It’s bizarre but amazing – it works.

I’m back at work now, and I’m fit. I feel I’ve come out of it quite strong, and wanting to make a difference about mental health and the stigma around it. If someone asked why I was off sick I would talk about it.

As a force we are very good at helping people with mental health issues – but we’re not as good when it comes to looking after each other. We see it as weak.

I know many people who have got stress, depression, anxiety or possible early signs of PTSD who will not say they’ve got anything wrong with them. I want to help those people get to where I am – to tell them to move on, get treatment, keep going, don’t give up. That just because you’re ill doesn’t make you less of a person and it doesn’t mean you can’t do the job.

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